back again.
got back my report book today. got really poor result.
fail 5 but in the book appear only 4.
i think ms sumitha pass me for history. cos i got 49.
didnt really got mood to run the morning run.but i still run. got very blurr vision after the run. everything was like so blurr and duno why my heart feel so uneasy. lols. like having heart attack. anyways. i duncare so much le. during pe. played basketball with donna`jianhui and ks.
after that i took a bat and hit the tree for more den 5 tyms. the leaves fall so nicely. i love it. =)
that's the only thing that makes me smile. thou it injured my left palm. but i felt that it was worth it.was in great pain. but i didnt really say out. no one care to know too. didnt eat during recess again. that is the 5 tyms le. i just dunhaf the appe to eat.
im i avoidin them? or im i too down? during the recess. haiix lost a few kg too.
before goin for pe. talk to serene awhile and im feeling weird.
i was thinkin shld i tell her that i will not be following them anymore or just gif a fake smile and continue talkin. haix. i did the second one. it`s complicated. after sch. my aunt and jolyn came to my class. i didnt expected that. i want to tell hem. but...haiix. i just went home wid them. back to my aunt hse. dun feel like goin back. till 4 + den i went home. back doin nth but teaching my brother. went out for dinner. den to my granny hse. got lecture again.
i simply dun understand why my mother love to tell everyone my result and lecture me right in front of them. why dun she just publish in the newspaper to let the worldwide knows that her daughter,me failed more subject as her cousin,jolyn.
why must she compare? i hate peep who compare, AND RACIST!. that al that is found in her? why must she be my mother? why? why? why? i hate her. they way she lecture me in front of them seems lyk im not her daughter. and to me, you really makes me hate you. you seems more to a foster mother den my OWN mother. IHATEYOU!. NV TO CALL YOU MOM ANYMORE. you will regret wad you did today.
I seriously duno wad happen to you. you seems to be totally the other person.
well. i care no more. im tired too. tc! i've got more problems that need to overcome. it's more den your problem. it is better not for me to list your name. when you happen to see this. dun be dissapointed. im still your friend but no longer the open`and easygoing one.
To the unknown person whom i use to trust.